Confusion: Confusion...True Story..

I won't write that my hiatus is finished coz..
I am churning out posts after posts this year...And will try to continue to do so.

Last year was a different case....
I had different motives...
I had different plan of action....
But this year..it's all about me...
It's always about me.....wasn't it....

It has always been ...and will continue to do the same......

As always ...there are only two people whom I am accountable to ...other than me...Mom & Pop's.....It will be the same for as long as I live.

This year got a free pass for freedom......
U Know what...Rite...U Don't Know.??..I pass on this explanation....
But it came at a cost....Some other time, Some other post...

This year's main theme has been confusion.......

Whenever I want to make a decision...I M in two minds....
I don't know...what's wrong with me...This never happened to me before.

I was very clear with what I wanted...Period...
I never doubted myself, my ideas, my thoughts........No second guesses.....
No wavering thoughts....No decisions overturned....

Unfortunately the same cannot be said about this year...not only this year the last 4 months of 2011 as well...
Why is this happening with me?

Now everything is a duality in my life.....

Sun......Moon
Light ...Dark
Day......Night
Summer...Winter
Decision.Confusion.....Hehheheh

Is there any particular reason why is this happening to me now?
When I am at the brink of achieving perfection...I am failing.......
I am not second guessing my abilities...I am second guessing my decisions....

I will survive....
I am going to make it through...
Just gimme time...I will get over this........Come On.......Mav...

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Aftermath of Excessive Happiness---Fun Continues

Aftermath of 2012 trip to Village.......

I always believed that nothing is constant in life....not even my thoughts....
Which I thought are cold, calculated, cut throat......but....ohh god why is there a but in everything I do.........Have mercy....

People change....Really they do........No other choice...
Look at mountains.. the best example of solid...heheh that's the reason for the phrase....ROCK SOLID....heheh Back to business....
They are shaped and cut by flowing water...so what is a puny human mind ?
ehhehehe ...

I never knew that I was capable of changing....WTF..WTF..WTF.
ohh god...where is this post headed.......

Retreat...Rethink...Redo...Yeah Rite......(Grin)

So the aftermath..of the jolly trip
1) My bucket list is calling me......Do DO Do...
2) Writer inside of me....is shouting at the top of this voice..Write Write.
3) Photographer inside of me....is pushing me to new xtremes...Shoot Shoot
4) The itch to travel is increasing day by day....Roam Roam...
5) At the same time.....I want my work life to be the same....Work Work
6) I want a relocation.....Move Move
7) I want to buy a car.....Yeah a car.......not the toy for kidz...the toy car for the grown up gentlemen like me....yeah i m not kidding......hehehe


A couple of things more......
something happened on February 6th...& 13th....

Now Now..don't over burden your puny minds to run over time....I will tell u .... there was a client visit on 13th...in our company for my project. So we had a cultural event....

It was a team effort....about 90 % of the team was involved in one or the other work....Dancers...Technical team...narrators...etc etc...
Team work means more we....truly understood it....
What with working and practising at the same time....TIME MANAGEMENT..hehehe


Knowing me...any guesses.....What I did? Noooooooo
I was not one of the backgroudn personnel or the coordinator....
For a change I was the actor... sorry dancer........I M A Disco Dancer...Hey Hey...ROFL...VAMOS....
No need to reread it again....Yep u read it rite......

Maverick became a Dancer......LOL...ROFL...I still can't believe it myself.....



Atta Boy.... Maverick...Take a Bow.. Take a Bow....

PS: What an Awesome....Moustache....heheheheh...Killing mee..........



Coordinated steps from the same person...who has two left feet...
Controlled movements from the same person....whose body moves in tune to the music...(to be understood as mass dance...hehehe)
What is the world coming to rite. :P
But seriously it was fun.... one thing which helped me out was that I dont have stage fright and also I have loads of stamina.....

Yep me bad..not to tell you about the dance..the dance was a marati style dance for Lord Ganesh...which is also called as Ganapathi puja dance...not the teen maar dance...we are accustomed to ..LOL .It was good....

But total credit should go to my Choreographer,Co-dancer, IBM colleague Deepali who thought I could dance...She believed in me...even when i clearly did not trust myself...BTW ...she is a great dancer....Gr8 teacher....

So I had no other choice...Learnt the steps...Practice makes a man perfect in anything...so thats what i did......yep...As cool as a cucumber....LOL

The outcome
Ladies & Gentlemen...It was legen...wait for it...dary...
Everyone liked it.....Guyz u should have seen our costumes...it was fun...
All happies....All iz well....in the end....

If you ask me will I dance again...May be...May not be......Let's see what the future holds...But definitely i will not take part in the Dance reality shows....heheheheheh.. Let the lesser gifted ones make merry in the absence of the master... heheheh Thats the attitude...Maverick...Vamos.... heheheh


So much to do.....so less time...already February is at its end......Still another 10 months in this year....

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Maverick's 3 R's

Retreat  ...Rethink...Redo
Ring any bell....

Sometimes the best way forward is not always moving forward..but taking a step back, think and take the best possible action.

Coz in life nothin is the same as it seems....
one second u think everything goes according to what u plan...
The other second.....all hell breaks loose....

Wanna example......i have loads of xample's with me....
But I have posted many....follies of my life.....
Introspect ur own life's dudes & dudette's....Hehheehhe


So the best bet would be to follow the 3 R's ...Retreat..Rethink...Redo....

This will help you in 2 ways....
1) Regardless of many set backs....u will reach ur goals....True story..
2) I can't remember.....mates..

I know...preaching is easy than practising but ...atleast giving it a thought is the first step which you can take...rite....Words from an ever positive bloke.

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What's Cookin@2012

@ Dec 2011 ...I Decided that enough is enough......
2012 is totally dedicated to I, Me, Myself.

Surprisingly, I think after a long long wait..even the gods above agree with me for a change.....Proof.....

Was able to work from home for 3 weeks....heheheh it's another matter that the work was hectic but the main issue of staying at home was solved. Yep......grin.....

All happies....
Mom Happy
Dad Happy....
Nenu bi Happy... LoL

Out of that 3 weeks, one week was totally at paternal grandfather's village....(Grinning widely) after frigging two years.....It was legen..wait for it....dary.....

I can say that slowly but surely my 30 new places to visit before I turn 30 is decreasing cause I got to visit Papi Kondalu....On a boat...The trip was awesome, even more pleasurable as I went with many near & dear.

The twists and turns of the river were totally awesome and it's beauty cannot be put into words....There are something's in this world which cannot be put into words but have to be experienced. This trip was totally one of them.




....Some Pics from Papi Kondalu.....


There is something about my village & Godavari(river)...
It is like a magnet pulling me always. God only knows.....what's with me and my love for this amazing river.....

I Love her when she is full in Rainy season.....
I love her even when she is barely alive with a thin trickle at the height's of summer.

My schedule for my stay in village.....
1) Wakey Wakey @ 6 AM would you believe that without Alarm...Amazin rite.....Me awake even before the sun is awake.....
2) Pick my Camera...and my feet automatically find their way to her(Who else...Godavari of course.)
3) Every view is a beauty....which I want to capture in my lousy Point & Shoot Sony Camera.(Wait for another year for my SLR.)
4) But amazingly every shot was a beauty as if she obliged me to capture her beauty to the bare essential.
5) Return Home for Breakfast and will away the time.
6) By the time the clocking was showing 3:30 to 4 PM I was away on an another expedition to cherish the beauty.








The view at night to see the stars meet the river was as if they were exchanging sweet nothings to each other......Damn I should have been a travel writer.....Not an IT professional.

GOD gimme a bank balance of 1 Crore, I will go back to my village and live of the interest. I need nothing more for this life. hehehehehhe

This trip of 5 days has given me the strength to brave the cold & frigid waters of Kolkata for another 6 months easily.

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Ur Alive.......A small Poem

Learn to be like the mischievious wind, boundless freedom.
Learn to be like the waves of the sea, falling but rising again.
Learn to be like a child with a spark of awe for everything u see.
Learn to be like shore, bravely facing every tsunami life throws at u is as what u expect.

Learn to live, Learn to Love......Then ur Alive.

....Will be updated with more lines

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Contradicting Contradictions of MaVeRiCk'S Life

I dont know whether there is something wrong with me or there is something wrong with the person who wrote my destiny.

Of late contradictions have been increasing in my life, I am being attracted to what I hate the most...I mean hate of the highest possible level....... Instances.....

I am starting to dislike what I love the most and vice versa.
Instances??????

1) I hate to work....Beginning to like this.....WTF
2) I like to keep somethings to myself..Always thought Sharing was so lame...... but now..it's an entire different ball game.
3) I am friendless.........and hating it....(not entirely)
4) Hopeless.....Lost in transalation
And there are a lot more....which I forgot conveniently....

See this is also a point, of late I am forgetting things......which is so unlike me. Spelling mistakes are creeping in..... If there had been this much buzz about Spelling bee when I was a child i would have been hat trick winner with ease.

It's like my whole life is turning upside down........WTF WTF WTF....I can't stand this..

But thanks to god almighty something's never change........

Amma...
Avakayi.....
Anon.......for the present.....

Thanks a lot to god for at least keeping them constant. Hahahhaha.....
This post might be simple but necessary.......

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In Retrospect of 2011

2011 was a good year with a self rating of 60%, almost what 20% lesser than 2010....
coz I was able to do 100% justice to my Work life but I lost many things in my personal life.

This was a self imposed exile but i came to know many hard truths in life.........and ended up missing what I loved the most......

Starting of with the positives.....
1) Got an award....in April for job well done in HBC....
2) Joined new project Medtronic...of whom i was a part of from Nov 2010 but fully joined in June 2011.
3) Then all hell broke loose with loads of responsibilites since October and since then there has been no looking back...with each task being difficult than the previous one.

Negatives....
1) Had an accident in March...6th to be exact. took more than 1 month to completely use my left hand and right leg........
2) All hell broke loose in my family with First mom becoming sick which required an operation and then when she was recuperating even Dad fell sick.......That took a lot out of my will to work.
3) My fear got the best of me in some other matter, which I will regret for the rest of my life.......This may change in the future...this total funda of regret doesn't work with me hehehe lets see......

Actually I am not the person who broods about something for a long time but I ended up doing the same of what I hated the most.

My one motto in life...."Live life with no regrets" has been trashed. But I still believe in my other motto " Eveyrthing that happens either good or bad, happens for a reason" ....For the best.

Anyways......I don't think I will have this feeling of regret for much more time.
Gotta Move On...Rite.........Yeah Rite Tell me About it....

There have been many up & downs in my life, this year had many opportunities to add to the list, which it did with emphasis.
.........LOL.... Thank you 2011....

But if you ask me seriously....it helped me grow as a person.....
From a fun filled...who didn't give a rat's ass to any problem,to a person who wants to predict any problem before it arises.
From a total chilled out bum....to a person who can handle multiple responsibilities with some amounts of ease(this has to be improved....rofl)
From a control freak....evolving into a bloke who can accept anything that's thrown at him. Heheheh (Tit for Tat).
From a person who thinks only about the present, to a person who is planning 10 moves ahead........(This statement is truly contradictory with my beliefs...There is a separate post coming up)

Most of all I enjoyed working on my other belief.....

Maverick never forgives,never forgets.....Either for good or Bad.


The outcome of 2011......
Mr.1 title from IBM(Rating for great work..the maximum u can get....Gr8 rite...Yeah tell me about it...frown)

Truly alone even with everyone around me.
Truly Friendless even with friends all around.
Da...Both the above lines are almost the same but different.

I M NOT HAPPY WITH MYSELF...........
NO SELF SATISFACTION................
Hmmmm.....Period.

I think I am thinking too much.
In the end I am happy that I have the world's best parents.....who will not let me move on to the powerful but dark side(hahahah like Anakin Skywalker...to Darth Vader), without them I am pretty sure......
This Maverick is travelling on a highway to hell....thanks god.
My pillars of support...
My anchor to turbulent thoughts..



I tried to so hard......
I got so far............
But in the end..........
It doesn't even matter..(Courtesy: LP...)
I will survive..........
I am gonna make it thru.
Just gimme time.........(Courtesy: EI)
I will make you pay.......


With that this is Maverick.....Signing off........
Astera vista baby.......ROFL.

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14th.February...Just another day for me...

Girlz...Girlz...Girlz......

U can't live with them....U Can't live without them.
It's an irony of every man's life............

I am writing about this especially on this day....14th February........Incidentally Coincidental ????

No Comments.....hehhehe

There have been many people in the past who have preached the above, there will be many who will repeat the same in the future.......

But seriously, U take any problem it will always boil down to one single factor............FEAR Factor.....hahah noooo ..GIRLS

Let's Consider One scenario......
Q) Why does a robber do what he does?
A) He has to earn some money, he is good at showing some levels of creativity....but seriously he has to earn something to take care of somebody......boyz being boyz...they will eat anything just to fill their stomach...no desires to eat hi-fi delicacies unlike the people under discussion. Hehehehhehehe

So Simply put he has to appease somebody......not himself......


It's been what almost 26(Confusion over DOB:year is 1986..anybody please clear this up) years since this genius has taken his first breath in this world........I still can't understand what my mom means..heheheh but seriously I know that she loves me a lot i mean a lot...... but that expression of love keeps on varying from time to time......

Newton was dead right about his third law.............inanimate objects....he might not have been very social like me....heheheh

For every action there will be an equal and opposite reaction for physics........
But I don't think he knows there is an anamoly for his law.....
Girlz.......

For every word spoken by a man........there will be variance in the reaction shown by the woman....... hehhehehe

That is why there have been a number of movies made in Hollywood.......namely

What a Girl wants
What a Woman wants......etc etc
Question: Aren't Girl & Woman made of the same kind ........Hehehehehhe


I thought I was damn good at understanding people.......But i have been proved wrong in this aspect..........again
My eyes have opened up.....forcibly.........that my view point has been a mirage in the desert and my knowledge is nothing but a star in the milky way galaxy. hehheheheheheheh

Seriously.....This is a heads up call from one great mind to all the great minds of this world like people at NASA, CERN, CCMB etc etc.......Drop eveyrthing on whatever you are working............Let's start this research topic with highest priority.............

Let's all try to understand how the girl's think.............Coz...I don't think god can help us in this particular matter by showing us any sign.............

Getting the point..........If you have read this and know a better way or a solution to understanding this unsolved mystery of how to understand a girl.......Please let me know..........

Maybe soup boyz can help in throwing some insight into this matter....Anybody????

This is Maverick....Over & Out.

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